Surrendering: Letting Go But Not Giving Up: A Lesson In Faith

Ok - this is pretty transparent, but here goes... I've tried and tried to do that with the longing to be married… the longing not to be alone. True, my grip has released over the years, but I still feel a finger or two holding on to it. I've tried to give it up, throw my arms up, and just accept that I won't be married, but that’s giving up and that isn't surrendering it at all. I don’t think it has as much to do with the longing itself as the control of satisfying it. Maybe it’s not that I can’t surrender it, but that I can’t seem to keep it surrendered. I guess I just have to continue to do it… sometimes frequently than other times.

Surrendering is letting go
Surrendering is not giving up
The difference is hope
With letting go, hope remains in tact
With giving up, it doesn't
And you can't lose hope
Even if hope gets razor thin
God is there


“Streams in the Desert” – May 19 entry:

when we believe God for a blessing, we must have an attitude of faith and begin to act and pray as if the blessing were already ours. We should respond to God as if He has granted our request. This attitude of trust means leaning upon Him for what we have claimed and simply taking it for granted that He has given us our request and will continue to give it."

the condition for prayer is this:
1. we ask in faith and in Christ's name
2. the oneness with Him and His will

"it will be
given you" (John 15:7)

So, do I have the faith to believe that I will be married one day (soon)? I think my wavering is what is causing His tarrying. So, I stand on these verses... and I just love that one is 11:11.

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

By faith Abraham, even though he was past age—and Sarah herself was barren—was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise.
Hebrews 11:11

so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

If you want me to
-- Ginny Owens

All for now,
Lisa

P.S. Some great articles:
http://www.crosswalk.com/singles/11576008/
http://www.crosswalk.com/11573521/